aphelionbruise: last night i had a dream where you kissed me it was imperfect and quiet and...

aphelionbruise:

last night i had a dream where you kissed me
it was imperfect and quiet and small
but you kissed me

i wanted to get my hands around your shoulder blades
& splay my fingers there
not pulling you, not pushing you, just this:
steady weight & your lips gentle

there was this great knot in my stomach that wouldn’t come undone
the tightening of the core that comes from being
wanted
i wanted to light everything on fire
i wanted to die

except i didn’t, not actually
i wanted to close us up in a pocket universe
so i didn’t have to worry about anything else