i'm a catholic too... raised catholic w 8 years of catholic school. then a non-religious high school. i spent a lot of time soul-searching tbh and i think i am stronger in my faith bc of it. but like u said about the alter ego, whenever i do something *bad*, or read fanfics there's always this guilty part in the back of my mind i have to ignore. my identity is fractured into pieces. it's hard to stay strong in your belieffs in this world... and i agree that faith, like anything, should evolve.

it’s definitely really hard, and I agree with you about the fractured identity thing, because I feel that way too. Especially when I view who I am as a catholic versus who I am in this fandom, for example. Both of them are aspects of me that I can’t ignore—I like to write gay explicit fanfiction, but I also believe in God, and cannot view myself as agnostic or atheist or whatever. Catholicism is so inherent in my life that I’m not me without it.

I really just take comfort in the fact that as long as I’m not hurting anyone, and I’m treating everyone kindly, then I’m a good person. The world is slowly changing, and I have faith in the good of human beings that we’ll manage to go the right direction eventually.

I’m also happy to have found solidarity in you, anon. Thank you 💕 and we’ll be okay, I know it.